The Undoing

Rhiannon Willson

One of my friends had a dog who would run

in circles around her garden until there was

a trench around the perimeter. You’ve been

a part of my life for so long I didn’t realise

how much you’d become part of the landscape.

It is not until you tell me I’m your best friend


that I realise you’re mine. I realise it slowly.

There is nothing groundbreaking about our

friendship, nothing new in all the text messages

and the thousand games of pool, long walks

over muddy ground, but suddenly I am

seeing that you know me better


than all the rest of my friends put together.

All my buried secrets. It’s not until we are sat

together in your garden, cross legged on the grass

next to the tomatoes talking about the future

that I realise and can’t picture one without you.

You have worn your name into my bones


and it didn’t hurt at all. There was no engraving,

no sharpened knife, just years of you

running laps, four-hour phone calls and

late night drives and all the times

we went to each other before anyone else.

I feel as though you have snuck up on me,


pushed your way into my life by inches

set up shop in my chest

without me even noticing


my god

it’s you, isn’t it?





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Rhiannon Willson is a queer poet who spends her spare time playing scrabble with old ladies and trying to learn how to rollerskate. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Royal Rose Mag, Dreams Walking and Sturgeon Review, among others. She can be found on twitter @rhiannonwillson or through her website, rhiannonwillson.co.uk